This moring made me feel so unprepared and nervous. The admin. went over first day proceedors and it seemed like so many things to remember and so many things I can't remember. I think that's how everything is. They introduced the ideas of homeroom, and taking attendance and first day procedure.. none of which they mentioned until today!
I just tried to picture the first day as realistically as possible. It will be chaotic and crazy, I will be nervous, something will go wrong, but at the end of it I will still be alive.
The end of the day ended so well though. I felt like even though we were in endless meeting sessions (that are seeming to get repetative!) I still got such a good handle on things in my classroom. I also did a lot of lesson plan work at lunch time and felt like I got a lot of things figured out. My classroom is almost set up to where I want to be.. and I feel like I FINALLY have a vision about where I want it to go. Which is a nice feeling to have- 4 days before school starts. And I think I'll be working hard for 3 of those 4 days- but I know it will be a great feeling when it's all done.
I went to this great training session yesterday about being creative and thinking outside the box. I loved it. I really want to carry over creativity as much as I can in my class. A lot of the ideas presented I knew that I would have struggled with as a student, but I hope my students will love to be creative and original.
I am in this weird stage- which I heard about in a class at A&M- the fantasy stage. I just can't picture anything going wrong. I know it will. I think of the things that went wrong in my last school, and then I just think to myself, " But that school wasn't as good. This will be great."
At least I know this stage will pass. Quickly.
I'll just think of it as staying positive.
I am getting nervous about money. I realized today it's one month until I get my first paycheck. I just need so many things... a coffee table, a washer/dryer, a poster, always something for my classroom. Just too much stuff! And on top of that rent and bills I've never paid before. I know that I have plenty of money- I'm just not sure if it will all go around.
I can't wait until Where The Wild Things Are comes out in theatres!
There's been so many Firsts in my life this week:
First time to see a movie alone
First time to live alone
First time to drive around Austin.. as a resident
First time to decorate a classroom
First time to be so overwhelemd by school training
First time to buy so much with my own money!
First time to not be in College Station... or sorority rush in 4 years.
So many new things that are scary and overwhelming right now. In no time, though, it will seem like all this will be old news. I hope I can remember what it felt like to be going through all these firsts... even if it isn't the best feeling right now.
